My first audition for a musical was Monday November 22, 2010. Once Upon a Mattress is a kid friendly show chock full of innuendo. There will be 30 people cast in all with around 9 leading roles. Out of the 32 people who came to audition only eight were male. My audition pieces were, Daisy’s monologue from Baby With the Bathwater by Christopher Durang and If I only had a brain from The Wizard of Oz. Before that day I had not sang for an audition. It was terrifying.
What is acting for me? It is people watching advanced; a conversation with a stranger is research and going to the movies is an invaluable experience. My journey with theater has been short, yet the amount that it has enriched me is incalculable.
Where am I going? Where will I end up? I don’t know, but I’ve never been more comfortable with that than at this very moment. On the day to day I come to terms with what I do and do not know and make the decision to keep moving forward. I will do whatever is necessary to achieve my dreams and make something of myself. This is a mission statement.
I’ve been thinking way too hard. Rationalizing myself into a way of thinking that I’m not absolutely certain of and adopting values that are as positive as they are lofty. Some part of me thinks there isn’t one absolute way of thinking, but I know that you can only accomplish something if you hold firmly to one and work on it. I think it is important to be respectful to another way of thinking and be open to suggestions. I’m honing my perspective.
I know I can do well in thinking this way. That I can be happy, but there is something inside of me fighting this and I’m not sure what to name it. Is it for evil or good? Is it doubt or silent acknowledgment of my truth eating away at me. There are so many advantages to holding to an accepted set of truths that I know many people need. I’ll be honest when I say I need it. I’ve learned more this year than I have my whole life and I know I’m a better person for it.
This is not the tenor of crisis. I’m thinking out loud because I have an important decision to make in the near future that can effect the next few years of my life. It’s all about risk and security. Any decision I make will be a positive one I am certain of it.
Thank God I wrote this out. I just figured out why this has been so hard. My mind is excellent at complicating simple decisions. Stay tuned.
I have been so BUSY! Never been this busy in my life and I am equally content. (I wish I didn’t have allergies though. Aye, there’s the rub.)
What have you been up to you ask. Gosh, memorizing lines. So many lines! I’m in 3 scenes of The Cripple of Inishmaan, a full length play written by Martin McDonagh. I have memorized the lines and now I’m working on the choreography to a 3 minute long scene out of Hamlet with a Mrs. Jamie Thornton. Lastly, but not leastly, I’m doing a scene out of Angels in America.
I am devoted wholly to this idea of working in theater. I don’t care what job, but I’m going for broke. I’ll say it, Joshua Arbaugh would love nothing more than to be an actor! I take myself very seriously and will take acting in a similar fashion.
I used to be a lot more satisfied just strumming around on guitar didn’t matter waht the lyrics were or are I just wanted to sing you something
To make you notice To take a moment to look me a bit more closely and now that I have your full attention I’d like you to ask yourselves these questions
Does that chord sound right there Are the notes ringing out clear Is he singing out of passion Or just out of fear and how did he grow Such a full beard Is he part crizzly bear Or genetically altered? When he tries to comb it, Do the teeth falter? And how did he get so handsome.
I used to be a lot more satisfied just hanging out with friends but now I’d like to wow them and day by bay uh and bit by bit me it will be more clear that I’m fucking awesome At everything Especially singing
I used to be a lot more satisfied just strumming around on guitar didn’t matter waht the lyrics were or are I just wanted to sing you something
